Who I am???

I know who I am.I can say every good things about myself but no one can lie to themselves.I can say that I'm good looking to everyone in the world but the truth is I'm not.
I'm just a regular kid.Has darker skin colour compared to all of my friends and jongang. I am not handsome and there is nothing that change that fact.

Some say that I'm like device driver.The lowest level in file system architecture..
Some say that I'm like a black man because of my skin colour..
Some say that I'm like Ronaldinho because of my teeth...
hahahaha..

When I was a kid,I was really pissed if someone say those things to me..
but as time passed,I do not really care...
Say what you want.It's you mouth.Not mine that I can control.

but am I?

Sometimes it hurts deeply in..
They say it's just a joke but they never been in my shoe..
to be said like that for your whole life...
even by those who are very close to you..
but i always try to be positive and open..
to accept what people wanna say..
although it hurts so much...
I'll stand tall and stong and hide my tears...
people say "Time heals everything"

THAT IS A LIE!!!!

"Time don't heal everything.Sometimes it brings more pain"




But i know there will always be a place for me where i can tell my stories..
a place where i can let my tears flow...
someone who will listen...

for those who might read these,you do not need to apologise..
it's just that it's true...
you do not have to apologise for something that is true...
i am just glad that i have a honest friends like all you...

adakah ini diriku???

I was born on these month.I can see some of it are true but can you see the characters in me?
Up to you to decide how am I to your eyes...



Jamadil Akhir
Wataknya berani, dia hormatkan orang lain. Berbagai kepandaian ada padanya. Apabila dia tahu bahawa dia salah atau keliru maka dia mudah mengakuinya, tapi bila dia tahu dia benar, pendiriannnya keras dan tidak mahu mengalah. Semasa kecilnya, ibubapanya perlu mendidiknya dengan baik agar terserlah sifat-sifatnya yang baik itu, kerana jika betul didikannya, masa dewasa ia akan menyenangkan kedua orang tuanya

JANUARI
· Bercita-cita tinggi dan orangnya serius, suka mendidik dan dididik.
· Sangat mudah melihat kelemahan orang dan suka mengkritik.
· Rajin dan setiap yang dibuat nampak keuntungan.
· Suka pada kecantikan, kekemasan dan teratur.
· Bersifat sensitif dan berfikiran mendalam.
· Pandai mengambil hati orang lain.
· Pendiam kecuali telah dirangsang.
· Agak pemalu dan mempunyai daya tumpuan yang sangat tinggi.
· Mudah mendisiplinkan diri sendiri
· Badannya sihat tetapi mudah diserang selsema.
· Bersikap romantik tetapi tidak pandai memperlihatkannya.
· Cukup sayang pada kanak-kanak.
· Suka duduk di rumah
· Setia pada segala-galanya.
· Perlu belajar kemahiran bersosial.
· Sifat cemburu yang sangat tinggi

I'm nobody...

I've been thinking a lot about what my friend said about me.And I think it's true.My friend said that my excuse saying that I do not want to couple because I were very busy is bullshit.Busy is an unacceptable excuse.And I understand why now.No matter how busy you are: assignments,meetings, or group discussions,if you want to couple,then you will sacrife some of your time for her.It's because if you really love and care about someone,that you must be able to spend time with her.That what my friend able to do.He really like the girl and he willing to sacrifies some times to have a long conversation with her.That is what I was wondering whether I could do that(like I said before).But the truth is,is based on what my other friend said.

"Who actually wants you(to be their girlfriend)?"

I do not want the history to repeat itself.I don't want to fall to the illusion of my heart again.I let myself to believe that I can never get a girlfriend.That's what I want to keep doing.Because I know that what my friend said was true.What kind of girl that actually wants me?Hahaha.They got to either mad or blind.(maybe even not both.hahaha)

I was hurt once and don't ever wants it tohappen again until I'm sure.Until I can be sure that it goes in 2 direction.Hehe.

But until then...